 Casey
This may sound weird, but I was an anti-smoking zealot as a kid. I was the one that put my dad's cigarettes under the water faucet. But when I was about 13 I started having vivid dreams about smoking. I would wake up saying "wow" that was intense. This lead to a curiosity in smoking. I didn't smoke my first cigarette till I was 16. But after the first cigarette, I knew I hooked. Not physically, but psychologically. About a yr later, I had a job as a cook, where everyone would step out for smoke breaks but myself. I told myself, if you want a break, you need to step out with the others for a cigarette. I used this as an excuse to take up smoking on a regular basis. I was 17, I've been smoking ever since. I have tried to quit smoking several time since then, with no success. I smoke about 10-15 cigs a day. I don't have the motivation to quit. I still enjoy smoking, and might have the motivation to quit when I'm older. |